生活依然充满挑战，欢笑有时，落泪有时。
生活仍然充满诱惑，有时持守，有时堕落。
生活依然充满希望，等候有时，兑现有时。
生活仍然充满亏欠，顽固有时，回转要及时。
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Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Thorn in my flesh
Living in a whirlpool, going round and round again. Will I ever escape from the pain coming from stupidity and incompetence? If God keep a thorn in Paul's flesh, I believe this is mine.
Lord, help me to overcome those negative emotions. Cure my heart and make me strong to endure all hardships!
Lord, help me to overcome those negative emotions. Cure my heart and make me strong to endure all hardships!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
My recent life
I have started my postgraduate course since December of 2010. Finally, I know what I shall pursue in my near future. Thank God for His grace and mercy, He guided me through all obstacles and challenges.
As we grow older, we have to withstand greater stress. I really hope I can control my emotion much better than now.
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As we grow older, we have to withstand greater stress. I really hope I can control my emotion much better than now.
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Sunday, October 31, 2010
An update
It has been quite a long time I didn’t write. After 2 months of teaching at the Serdang tuition center, I am settled down in UKM. Thank God for his guidance, I am very sure that He guided me to walk on the path of research. Thank God for sending me His angels to confirm His calling.
Life is very different now. I need to be more independent and self-discipline. Moreover, I need to be strong.
Friends, who were my support, somehow fade away. Could it be my problem? Am I being self-centered or self-exalted? Everybody has changed, I am changed.
Again, I am trapped in inferiority. Wouldn’t time preserve all the goodness? Lord God, now I only know a long lasting relationship means so much to me. You are the only One eternal, who loves me with everlasting love.
Shatter me, rebuild me. Nail me, revive me.
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Life is very different now. I need to be more independent and self-discipline. Moreover, I need to be strong.
Friends, who were my support, somehow fade away. Could it be my problem? Am I being self-centered or self-exalted? Everybody has changed, I am changed.
Again, I am trapped in inferiority. Wouldn’t time preserve all the goodness? Lord God, now I only know a long lasting relationship means so much to me. You are the only One eternal, who loves me with everlasting love.
Shatter me, rebuild me. Nail me, revive me.
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
The scent of perfect love
I am alone every night and morning, in the place I work. Thinking of writing something to someone, however my focus had switched to another One unintentionally. I think only God is worthy, to be praised for the love He give. No other love in the world is comparable.
The scent of perfect love
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The scent of perfect love
When air is still,
When there is no one around,
Perfect silence dwells my house.
But I can still,
Smell you around,
Right inside the empty house.
I know your presence,
Is so magnificent,
To make me worthy and awesome.
So pleasant, so lovely,
So kind, so true.
This is Your smell,
The scent of perfect love.
I shall not be in want,
When I stay in my Father’s house.
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Solitude
I had my solitude this Saturday.
I woke up and did everything my parents do every day, since they were out to Singapore. Firstly, boil the water; pour them into thermo flask. Then, feed the tortoise and fish. Also, replace water in the small aquarium. Later, I walked for 5 minutes to buy a newspaper. Finally, I had my breakfast. A typical day for parents, but yet a fresh encounter for me…hehehe…since I will need to remind myself things that I may miss out.
During my morning bath, a song appeared in my mind: Ku di tanganMu :)
It sounds like this:
Although I was alone, but God reminded that He is always with me. To be alone in a Christian perspective is to enjoy and abide in God in His presence. However, I think that I am still lacking of the genuine and heartfelt love in my heart. In truth or in past experience, I encountered His love a lot. Yet my heart is indifferent. Therefore, I am pursuing a love relationship with God.
Throughout the day I read, prayed and watched the TV programs. I napped and had a nice rest.
It was just a simple day. I learned that the presence of God is a fact to be remembered; it doesn’t come naturally to everyone. This is true to other facts in the bible, therefore we need to memorize the Scripture and meditate on it.
Yes, let’s learn to abide in God always!
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I woke up and did everything my parents do every day, since they were out to Singapore. Firstly, boil the water; pour them into thermo flask. Then, feed the tortoise and fish. Also, replace water in the small aquarium. Later, I walked for 5 minutes to buy a newspaper. Finally, I had my breakfast. A typical day for parents, but yet a fresh encounter for me…hehehe…since I will need to remind myself things that I may miss out.
During my morning bath, a song appeared in my mind: Ku di tanganMu :)
It sounds like this:
Ku di tanganMu (I am in Thy hands)
Ku di hatiMu (I am in Thy heart)
Di fikiranMu (In Thy thoughts)
Di rencanaMu (In Thy plans)
Tak pernah ku sendiri (I am never alone)
Ku di tanganMu (I am in Thy hands)
Ku di hatiMu (I am in Thy heart)
Di fikiranMu (In Thy thoughts)
Di rencanaMu (In Thy plans)
Tak pernah ditinggalkan (Never be forsaken)
Although I was alone, but God reminded that He is always with me. To be alone in a Christian perspective is to enjoy and abide in God in His presence. However, I think that I am still lacking of the genuine and heartfelt love in my heart. In truth or in past experience, I encountered His love a lot. Yet my heart is indifferent. Therefore, I am pursuing a love relationship with God.
Throughout the day I read, prayed and watched the TV programs. I napped and had a nice rest.
It was just a simple day. I learned that the presence of God is a fact to be remembered; it doesn’t come naturally to everyone. This is true to other facts in the bible, therefore we need to memorize the Scripture and meditate on it.
Yes, let’s learn to abide in God always!
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毕业后的生活
已经很久没有用华语来写blog了，还是觉得用母语比较亲切和自在。
自从五月份短宣回来以后，教了两星期的密集式补习，就放假到现在。最近在考motor的执照，希望星期二 (20/7) 可以考获，请为我祷告。我从八月份开始将去Serdang的一间补习中心工作，且希望在寻求神下一步的带领时可以赚取一些金钱和经验。
回到家里，多了父母的陪伴，却也少了朋友相聚的欢畅。毕业后难免会不习惯松懈的日子。说实在，有时候会有莫名的空虚和恐惧来敲门。但是我很感谢上帝，透过这两个月的时间我有机会好好地阅读和思考。读了好几本书，思想和心志也被主更新。
这段时间给我印象深刻的是J.I.Packer的《基督徒须知》，柯哲辉的《尼希米记诠释》及Henry & Richard Blackaby 的 《Experiencing God》。
简单的分享，我得的结论是如此：
我们身为基督徒生活得太过矛盾。
我们相信神，却不相信他的大能。真的遇见危难时，总是以担忧、恐惧来回应；好像上帝也无能为力一样。
我们相信圣经为神的话语，但是读到他对我们生命的呼召和要求时，却无动于衷。
我们称自己是蒙拣选的子民，却在思想行为上选择与世界妥协，向世人看齐。
我们懂得在忧伤时从圣经寻求安慰; 却不懂得寻求神的旨意及他对我们的心意。
我们作基督徒，更像是利用基督的益处。免费救恩，白白赦免，心灵慰籍，前途光明。
然而基督徒是爱的关系的代名词。神爱我们，我们爱他。如果一段关系里面只有单向的爱，是痛苦和不健全的。是的，我们叫基督痛苦。我们没有爱他。
我才再一次反省自己的生命。
复兴从明白和遵行神的道开始。我祷告无论是自己，又或者是你，心灵蒙神大大的复兴；并立志寻求和遵行主道。
“有了我的命令又遵守的，这人就是爱我的；爱我的必蒙我父爱他，我也要爱他，并且要向她显现。”（约14:21）
“凡遵守主道的，爱神的心在他里面实在是完全的。从此我们知道我们是在主里面。人若说他住在主里面，就该自己照主所行的去行。”（约一2:5-6）
共勉之。
Life graduated from university
There is a long time I didn’t write in Chinese. After all, I feel much easy and close to heart using my own mother tongue.
Back from the mission trip on May, I had taught two weeks of compact tuition class. After that, I have had my holidays until now. I am trying to get a motor driving license recently. Do pray for me, as I hope to pass the test on the next Tuesday (20/7).
Starting from August, I will be working in a tuition center at Serdang. I hope I can earn some money and gain some experience while seeking for God’s guidance for my life.
Back to hometown, I enjoy the companionship from my parents; while I lose the great time with friends. It’s normal to get a little bit unused with the idle life now. To be frank, sometimes I feel empty and uncertain. However, I give thanks to God, for He granted me a good time to read and think. Well, I have read several books, being refreshed in mind and will.
I am most impressed by by J.I.Packer, by Quah Cheok Hooi and by Henry & Richard Blackaby.
A simple sharing, what I concluded from my reading is this:
We are in great contradiction being a Christian.
As Christians, we are more likely to utilize Christ for our benefits: Free salvation, endless forgiveness, soul comfort and bright future.
But, the word “Christian” stands for a love relationship. God loves us, we love Him in return. One-sided love in a relationship causes great pain to the party that does not receive love. Yes, we put Christ in pain; we do not love Him.
Again, I examine my own life.
Revival starts with the understanding and obedience to God’s word. I pray for myself and you, so that our lives are revived by God; being firmed in seeking and obeying His word.
“Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” (John 14:21)
“But if anyone obeys His word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did.” (1 John 2:5-6)
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自从五月份短宣回来以后，教了两星期的密集式补习，就放假到现在。最近在考motor的执照，希望星期二 (20/7) 可以考获，请为我祷告。我从八月份开始将去Serdang的一间补习中心工作，且希望在寻求神下一步的带领时可以赚取一些金钱和经验。
回到家里，多了父母的陪伴，却也少了朋友相聚的欢畅。毕业后难免会不习惯松懈的日子。说实在，有时候会有莫名的空虚和恐惧来敲门。但是我很感谢上帝，透过这两个月的时间我有机会好好地阅读和思考。读了好几本书，思想和心志也被主更新。
这段时间给我印象深刻的是J.I.Packer的《基督徒须知》，柯哲辉的《尼希米记诠释》及Henry & Richard Blackaby 的 《Experiencing God》。
简单的分享，我得的结论是如此：
我们身为基督徒生活得太过矛盾。
我们相信神，却不相信他的大能。真的遇见危难时，总是以担忧、恐惧来回应；好像上帝也无能为力一样。
我们相信圣经为神的话语，但是读到他对我们生命的呼召和要求时，却无动于衷。
我们称自己是蒙拣选的子民，却在思想行为上选择与世界妥协，向世人看齐。
我们懂得在忧伤时从圣经寻求安慰; 却不懂得寻求神的旨意及他对我们的心意。
我们作基督徒，更像是利用基督的益处。免费救恩，白白赦免，心灵慰籍，前途光明。
然而基督徒是爱的关系的代名词。神爱我们，我们爱他。如果一段关系里面只有单向的爱，是痛苦和不健全的。是的，我们叫基督痛苦。我们没有爱他。
我才再一次反省自己的生命。
复兴从明白和遵行神的道开始。我祷告无论是自己，又或者是你，心灵蒙神大大的复兴；并立志寻求和遵行主道。
“有了我的命令又遵守的，这人就是爱我的；爱我的必蒙我父爱他，我也要爱他，并且要向她显现。”（约14:21）
“凡遵守主道的，爱神的心在他里面实在是完全的。从此我们知道我们是在主里面。人若说他住在主里面，就该自己照主所行的去行。”（约一2:5-6）
共勉之。
Life graduated from university
There is a long time I didn’t write in Chinese. After all, I feel much easy and close to heart using my own mother tongue.
Back from the mission trip on May, I had taught two weeks of compact tuition class. After that, I have had my holidays until now. I am trying to get a motor driving license recently. Do pray for me, as I hope to pass the test on the next Tuesday (20/7).
Starting from August, I will be working in a tuition center at Serdang. I hope I can earn some money and gain some experience while seeking for God’s guidance for my life.
Back to hometown, I enjoy the companionship from my parents; while I lose the great time with friends. It’s normal to get a little bit unused with the idle life now. To be frank, sometimes I feel empty and uncertain. However, I give thanks to God, for He granted me a good time to read and think. Well, I have read several books, being refreshed in mind and will.
I am most impressed by by J.I.Packer,
A simple sharing, what I concluded from my reading is this:
We are in great contradiction being a Christian.
We believe in God, but we do not believe His great power. Whenever trials or difficulties strike our lives, we respond it with fear and worries, as if God can do nothing.
We believe bible as the word of God, but when we read about His commands and calling to us, we do not want to obey.
We called ourselves as the chosen people, but in our minds and behavior; we compromised and chose to follow the world.
We know how to seek for encouragement from the bible in time of sadness, but we never seek for His eternal will and plan.
As Christians, we are more likely to utilize Christ for our benefits: Free salvation, endless forgiveness, soul comfort and bright future.
But, the word “Christian” stands for a love relationship. God loves us, we love Him in return. One-sided love in a relationship causes great pain to the party that does not receive love. Yes, we put Christ in pain; we do not love Him.
Again, I examine my own life.
Revival starts with the understanding and obedience to God’s word. I pray for myself and you, so that our lives are revived by God; being firmed in seeking and obeying His word.
“Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” (John 14:21)
“But if anyone obeys His word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did.” (1 John 2:5-6)
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