Seeking for God’s guidance

Life graduated from university is not easy. There are many decisions to make, many things to consider. It’s all about the unknown future, and we hold the responsibility in our hands for every decision we make.

For me, I am depressed by the situation. The hardest part of seeking God’s guidance lies in one word: WAIT. Waiting for answer is really a process that trains our perseverance.

There are at least 3 answers or guidance that I am seeking from God.
I believe God would allow certain circumstances to put me in the right place.

However, I am not getting any conclusion yet. So, when three of these important questions come together, waiting for guidance forms a tension that stretch me from a “firm” believer to a “desperate” believer.

This is so contradict. In faith I believe God would never miss His time to tell me the answer; but in practice I am so worried that I will make the wrong choice if God don’t tell me what to do.

This is another self-centered action. It looks like as if I were so godly to seek for God’s Will, but when I search my own heart I know that I am considering God as my “answer machine”. The act of seeking God signifies my irresponsibility, because I dare not to face up the consequences of making wrong decisions.

Therefore, it is the FEAR within my heart that drives me to seek for God’s guidance, but not the LOVE to God drives me to do so.

In love no fear, in fear no love.

I am SORRY, Jesus. I never love you out of a pure heart. Blinded by self-righteous, I hurt You from time to time. Have mercy on me, a sinner full of deceits and selfishness.

Now I understand, that’s why I can’t hear Your voice. As in Isaiah 59:2

“But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear.”

You are only rejoiced when I seek Your Will with the right attitude and motive. Please guard my heart, give me a heart full of genuine love. Love for You, love for the people.

Thank God for Your cleansing grace, I am released from the tension! I am willing to offer my life as a living sacrifice out of LOVE, please discard all my fear. In Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen.


PS: Thanks to the special person, thanks for sharing the material with me. You are so nice.

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