JamES UnScrambled

生活

2011-11-25T09:50:00.002+08:00

生活依然充满挑战，欢笑有时，落泪有时。

生活仍然充满诱惑，有时持守，有时堕落。

生活依然充满希望，等候有时，兑现有时。

生活仍然充满亏欠，顽固有时，回转要及时。

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Thorn in my flesh

2011-07-28T13:47:00.004+08:00

Living in a whirlpool, going round and round again. Will I ever escape from the pain coming from stupidity and incompetence? If God keep a thorn in Paul's flesh, I believe this is mine.

Lord, help me to overcome those negative emotions. Cure my heart and make me strong to endure all hardships!

My recent life

2011-02-12T23:51:00.004+08:00

I have started my postgraduate course since December of 2010. Finally, I know what I shall pursue in my near future. Thank God for His grace and mercy, He guided me through all obstacles and challenges.

As we grow older, we have to withstand greater stress. I really hope I can control my emotion much better than now.

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An update

2010-10-31T13:57:00.001+08:00

It has been quite a long time I didn’t write. After 2 months of teaching at the Serdang tuition center, I am settled down in UKM. Thank God for his guidance, I am very sure that He guided me to walk on the path of research. Thank God for sending me His angels to confirm His calling.

Life is very different now. I need to be more independent and self-discipline. Moreover, I need to be strong.

Friends, who were my support, somehow fade away. Could it be my problem? Am I being self-centered or self-exalted? Everybody has changed, I am changed.

Again, I am trapped in inferiority. Wouldn’t time preserve all the goodness? Lord God, now I only know a long lasting relationship means so much to me. You are the only One eternal, who loves me with everlasting love.

Shatter me, rebuild me. Nail me, revive me.

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The scent of perfect love

2010-08-21T14:06:00.008+08:00

I am alone every night and morning, in the place I work. Thinking of writing something to someone, however my focus had switched to another One unintentionally. I think only God is worthy, to be praised for the love He give. No other love in the world is comparable.

The scent of perfect love

When air is still,
When there is no one around,
Perfect silence dwells my house.

But I can still,
Smell you around,
Right inside the empty house.

I know your presence,
Is so magnificent,
To make me worthy and awesome.

So pleasant, so lovely,
So kind, so true.

This is Your smell,
The scent of perfect love.

I shall not be in want,
When I stay in my Father’s house.

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Solitude

2010-07-21T19:29:00.002+08:00

I had my solitude this Saturday.

I woke up and did everything my parents do every day, since they were out to Singapore. Firstly, boil the water; pour them into thermo flask. Then, feed the tortoise and fish. Also, replace water in the small aquarium. Later, I walked for 5 minutes to buy a newspaper. Finally, I had my breakfast. A typical day for parents, but yet a fresh encounter for me…hehehe…since I will need to remind myself things that I may miss out.

During my morning bath, a song appeared in my mind: Ku di tanganMu :)

It sounds like this:

Ku di tanganMu (I am in Thy hands)
Ku di hatiMu (I am in Thy heart)
Di fikiranMu (In Thy thoughts)
Di rencanaMu (In Thy plans)
Tak pernah ku sendiri (I am never alone)

Ku di tanganMu (I am in Thy hands)
Ku di hatiMu (I am in Thy heart)
Di fikiranMu (In Thy thoughts)
Di rencanaMu (In Thy plans)
Tak pernah ditinggalkan (Never be forsaken)

Although I was alone, but God reminded that He is always with me. To be alone in a Christian perspective is to enjoy and abide in God in His presence. However, I think that I am still lacking of the genuine and heartfelt love in my heart. In truth or in past experience, I encountered His love a lot. Yet my heart is indifferent. Therefore, I am pursuing a love relationship with God.

Throughout the day I read, prayed and watched the TV programs. I napped and had a nice rest.

It was just a simple day. I learned that the presence of God is a fact to be remembered; it doesn’t come naturally to everyone. This is true to other facts in the bible, therefore we need to memorize the Scripture and meditate on it.

Yes, let’s learn to abide in God always!

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毕业后的生活

2010-07-21T19:24:00.002+08:00

已经很久没有用华语来写blog了，还是觉得用母语比较亲切和自在。

自从五月份短宣回来以后，教了两星期的密集式补习，就放假到现在。最近在考motor的执照，希望星期二 (20/7) 可以考获，请为我祷告。我从八月份开始将去Serdang的一间补习中心工作，且希望在寻求神下一步的带领时可以赚取一些金钱和经验。

回到家里，多了父母的陪伴，却也少了朋友相聚的欢畅。毕业后难免会不习惯松懈的日子。说实在，有时候会有莫名的空虚和恐惧来敲门。但是我很感谢上帝，透过这两个月的时间我有机会好好地阅读和思考。读了好几本书，思想和心志也被主更新。

这段时间给我印象深刻的是J.I.Packer的《基督徒须知》，柯哲辉的《尼希米记诠释》及Henry & Richard Blackaby 的《Experiencing God》。

简单的分享，我得的结论是如此：

我们身为基督徒生活得太过矛盾。
我们相信神，却不相信他的大能。真的遇见危难时，总是以担忧、恐惧来回应；好像上帝也无能为力一样。
我们相信圣经为神的话语，但是读到他对我们生命的呼召和要求时，却无动于衷。
我们称自己是蒙拣选的子民，却在思想行为上选择与世界妥协，向世人看齐。
我们懂得在忧伤时从圣经寻求安慰; 却不懂得寻求神的旨意及他对我们的心意。
我们作基督徒，更像是利用基督的益处。免费救恩，白白赦免，心灵慰籍，前途光明。
然而基督徒是爱的关系的代名词。神爱我们，我们爱他。如果一段关系里面只有单向的爱，是痛苦和不健全的。是的，我们叫基督痛苦。我们没有爱他。

我才再一次反省自己的生命。

复兴从明白和遵行神的道开始。我祷告无论是自己，又或者是你，心灵蒙神大大的复兴；并立志寻求和遵行主道。

“有了我的命令又遵守的，这人就是爱我的；爱我的必蒙我父爱他，我也要爱他，并且要向她显现。”（约14:21）
“凡遵守主道的，爱神的心在他里面实在是完全的。从此我们知道我们是在主里面。人若说他住在主里面，就该自己照主所行的去行。”（约一2:5-6）
共勉之。

Life graduated from university

There is a long time I didn’t write in Chinese. After all, I feel much easy and close to heart using my own mother tongue.

Back from the mission trip on May, I had taught two weeks of compact tuition class. After that, I have had my holidays until now. I am trying to get a motor driving license recently. Do pray for me, as I hope to pass the test on the next Tuesday (20/7).

Starting from August, I will be working in a tuition center at Serdang. I hope I can earn some money and gain some experience while seeking for God’s guidance for my life.

Back to hometown, I enjoy the companionship from my parents; while I lose the great time with friends. It’s normal to get a little bit unused with the idle life now. To be frank, sometimes I feel empty and uncertain. However, I give thanks to God, for He granted me a good time to read and think. Well, I have read several books, being refreshed in mind and will.

I am most impressed by by J.I.Packer, by Quah Cheok Hooi and by Henry & Richard Blackaby.

A simple sharing, what I concluded from my reading is this:

We are in great contradiction being a Christian.

We believe in God, but we do not believe His great power. Whenever trials or difficulties strike our lives, we respond it with fear and worries, as if God can do nothing.

We believe bible as the word of God, but when we read about His commands and calling to us, we do not want to obey.

We called ourselves as the chosen people, but in our minds and behavior; we compromised and chose to follow the world.

We know how to seek for encouragement from the bible in time of sadness, but we never seek for His eternal will and plan.

As Christians, we are more likely to utilize Christ for our benefits: Free salvation, endless forgiveness, soul comfort and bright future.

But, the word “Christian” stands for a love relationship. God loves us, we love Him in return. One-sided love in a relationship causes great pain to the party that does not receive love. Yes, we put Christ in pain; we do not love Him.

Again, I examine my own life.

Revival starts with the understanding and obedience to God’s word. I pray for myself and you, so that our lives are revived by God; being firmed in seeking and obeying His word.

“Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” (John 14:21)

“But if anyone obeys His word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in Him must walk as Jesus did.” (1 John 2:5-6)

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For you...

2010-06-10T22:16:00.012+08:00

Thank you,
for being truthful.

Your sorrow is mine,
am standing here to keep you fine.

Forget the past,
for all to make you stand steadfast...

Am standing here,
to wipe your tear.

Am praying here,
to cast your fear.

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Your joy is mine,
am standing here to keep you shine.

Look at the future,
for joy is your copyright...

Am watching here,
to see you smiling bright.

Am waiting here,
to take me deep inside.

Thank you,
for being nice.

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Seeking for God’s guidance

2010-06-05T10:22:00.009+08:00
Life graduated from university is not easy. There are many decisions to make, many things to consider. It’s all about the unknown future, and we hold the responsibility in our hands for every decision we make.

For me, I am depressed by the situation. The hardest part of seeking God’s guidance lies in one word: WAIT. Waiting for answer is really a process that trains our perseverance.

There are at least 3 answers or guidance that I am seeking from God.
I believe God would allow certain circumstances to put me in the right place.

However, I am not getting any conclusion yet. So, when three of these important questions come together, waiting for guidance forms a tension that stretch me from a “firm” believer to a “desperate” believer.

This is so contradict. In faith I believe God would never miss His time to tell me the answer; but in practice I am so worried that I will make the wrong choice if God don’t tell me what to do.

This is another self-centered action. It looks like as if I were so godly to seek for God’s Will, but when I search my own heart I know that I am considering God as my “answer machine”. The act of seeking God signifies my irresponsibility, because I dare not to face up the consequences of making wrong decisions.

Therefore, it is the FEAR within my heart that drives me to seek for God’s guidance, but not the LOVE to God drives me to do so.

In love no fear, in fear no love.

I am SORRY, Jesus. I never love you out of a pure heart. Blinded by self-righteous, I hurt You from time to time. Have mercy on me, a sinner full of deceits and selfishness.

Now I understand, that’s why I can’t hear Your voice. As in Isaiah 59:2

“But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear.”

You are only rejoiced when I seek Your Will with the right attitude and motive. Please guard my heart, give me a heart full of genuine love. Love for You, love for the people.

Thank God for Your cleansing grace, I am released from the tension! I am willing to offer my life as a living sacrifice out of LOVE, please discard all my fear. In Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen.

PS: Thanks to the special person, thanks for sharing the material with me. You are so nice.

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Bliss in hope..

2010-06-04T00:55:00.004+08:00
It’s a great pleasure indeed when a person knows another one in a special way.

The power is great…So great to transform a person both mentally and spiritually.

A simple compliment would shed so much light and delight than a diamond does; a smile would fuel one to go for thousand miles.

And, it brings the person closer to his Father; seeking and walking in His way.

Does the person deserve such privileges?

What if the person you see is not exactly the way he is?

He is not as godly as you expect…Just an average man, striving against timidity.

He has no broad shoulder to lean on, nor big money to spend…

No ambitious vision, only step by step he walks the way his Father leads.

Please take a consideration.

If there is something to bring bliss, love is the only element.

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Sad...

2010-05-06T09:44:00.005+08:00
Just finished my thesis presentation,
I couldn't answer all the questions;
neither did I defend all my statements.

I know it isn't perfect,
I know things that I missed out.
But, you are too subjective.
Your ears and eyes are too high for my explanation.

Your volume will not scare me.
I only said what is right.
Yes I said yes;
No I said no,
At least I kept a clear conscience.

Good bye, MICROBIOLOGY!
These capital letters are my last respect to you.
3 years of time you had been my companion,
even though I didn't like you.

I wonder why I tolerate for such a long time,
before I came to realize...
I have no obligation to fulfill what is "right".

It ends here.

A new page begins.

Let Your vision be my only reason,
for every battle and hardship.

Guide me Lord!

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Just wanna write~

2010-04-24T11:57:00.002+08:00
My posts are always too formal or heavy, some of them even contain hidden meanings if you understand me well. But, a writer needs to try out new things always.

Sometimes some little sharing are touching enough. Well, I do prefer a short and inspiring article over a long and mind squeezing one.

Here is my first trial, a natural start. Hope that my writing skills, language and grammar usage would be polished along the process.

Actually I enjoyed to write since my primary 6. It's time for a proper learning and progress!

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Membuat pilihan

2010-04-20T23:51:00.004+08:00

Kita perlu membuat banyak pilihan apabila kita besar dan dewasa. Bagi saya, sudah umur 23 tahun baru saya menghampiri era kedewasaan. Membuat pilihan bukanlah senang, terutamanya pilihan yang akan memberi kesan seumur hidup. Memang kita berfikir banyak dan bergumul. Adakah saya akan menyesal? Adakah apa yang saya pilih ini berbaloi sehingga saya membuat pilihan sedemikian? Banyak lagi soalan.

Sebagai seorang Kristian memang saya hendak mengetahui apakah rancangan Tuhan. Saya tidak mahu membuat pilihan berdasarkan emosi yang tidak menetap. Terima kasih Tuhan, kerana terdapat banyak perjanjian di dalam alkitab boleh dijadikan sebagai pedoman saya sepanjang tempoh ini.

Amsal 16:9

Hati manusia memikir-mikirkan jalannya, tatapi Tuhanlah yang menentukan arah langkahnya.

Mazmur 37:5
Serahkanlah hidupmu kepada Tuhan dan percayalah kepada-Nya, dan ia akan bertindak.

Mazmur 25:12,14

Siapakah orang yang takut akan Tuhan? Kepadanya Tuhan menunjukkan jalan yang harus dipilihnya.

Tuhan bergaul karib dengan orang yang takut akan Dia, dan perjanjian-Nya diberitahukan-Nya kepada mereka.

Yesaya 58:11

Tuhan akan menuntun engkau senantiasa dan akan memuaskan hatimu di tanah yang kering, dan akan membaharui kekuatanmu; engkau akan seperti taman yang diairi dengan baik dan seperti mata air yang tidak pernah mengecewakan.

Yesaya 55:9

Seperti tingginya langit dari bumi, demikianlah tingginya jalan-Ku dari jalanmu dan rancangan-Ku dari rancanganmu.

Pimpinlah aku, Tuhan! Jangan biar aku menjauhi daripada Engkau. Tolong menguatkan aku tidak kira di mana dan pada bila-bila masa sahaja.

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Greatest trial

2010-04-14T22:45:00.005+08:00
Am experiencing my greatest trial ever. So much fear and burden. So nervous and paranoid. God, you holds tomorrow; please guard my heart! I know it will be extreme joy or sorrow, please put Thy hands on me in either case.

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最感恩的生日

2010-03-27T12:14:00.003+08:00

2010年3月21日，我的生日。

这是我从小到大以来最感动也是最感恩的生日。因为：

1）第一次邀请course mate 来到生日分享会，让我能够透过分享去见证神的慈爱和祂在我生命中的祝福。虽然只有五位朋友，然而我深信他们都是上帝所预备好的人。希望当天的分享可以在他们心中留下感动，盼望他们有一天都会接受耶稣。

2）第一次深深被爱。我没有想到CLC的姐妹弟兄们如此花费心思的为我预备这次的生日会。从场地布置、节目到食物的预备你们都用尽心思。特别是你们亲手所做的生日卡更是叫我感动。在这里我要感谢你们每一个人，其中包括：

慧瑜，慧珊，颖怡，晓薇，露清，Mathilda，佳萍，荣恩，雪倪和为着我的分享祷告的朋友。

我祈求上帝亲自报答你们的爱心和付出。在CLC里我深深的体验到单纯及无条件的爱。回想起来，上帝就透过你们的爱来建立我的生命。

我是谁？配得这一切…不就是软弱和常常陷入罪恶的人吗？每一次上帝都用祂数不尽的爱来叫我折服。我深感不配。越是亏欠的时候上帝就用更大的恩典和祝福来安慰我。我要感谢上帝的赦免和怜悯，我要歌颂你的慈爱！

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Syair Hati Tertekan

2010-03-20T01:39:00.006+08:00
Hari hujan baju berbasah,
Hari ujian hati gelisah.
Tesis projek belum berjaya,
Di mana selesai masa'alah?

Dari mula banyak berdoa,
Juga rakan, ibu dan bapa.
Susah payah mencuba juga,
Apa yang dapat namanya gagal.

Tidak mungkin berlepas saja,
Tuhan Bapa membantu saya.
Makin susah makin percaya,
Mukjizat Bapa selalu nyata.

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炖一碗补汤

2010-03-04T00:30:00.004+08:00
要炖一碗好的补汤，讲究的功夫并不容易。虽然我没有炖过补汤，但是从观察中便可知道有几方面的细节是要注意的。

1）对症下药
补汤无非是为了进补，有者更是为了治病。中药的种类繁多，功能药效各异。若是要对症下药，就必须清楚知道进补者的需要；且要深入了解各种中药配合使用的效果。

2）烹煮秩序
我相信这也是个重点。有些药材该先放，有些同时一起放，有些一定要到最后才可以放。为什么呢？因为不同的药材有不同的成分。只有在正确的时间放正确的药材才可以带来最大的效果。万一错放，虽然不至于危害生命，但也许会对进补者带来不必要的损伤。

3）烹煮火候
火候包括火力的大小和时间的长短。虽然不同的补汤煮法不同，但我相信一般上补汤一开始都是用小火烹煮的。当主要成分与汤头溶和以后才慢慢的加大火力。至于烹煮的时间通常从三至四小时不等。如果你认为煮得越久就越好那就错了。这是因为时间太长反而会破坏补汤的养分，甚至还会释放可能造成尿酸的成分。

还有吗？有。

4）用心烹煮
用心永远是成功的不二法门，炖补汤也是如此。虽然手法可能尚未成熟，但进补者看见烹煮者的心意时便已心满意足。如此一来，补汤更是有效；因为喜乐的心乃是良药。

希望自己不要只会纸上谈兵，总有一天必定要炖出一碗上好的补汤来。

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呼求

2010-02-23T01:01:00.005+08:00

天父，

我晓得你掌管明天，也深知道你与我同在。
我要把心中的茫然、焦虑与担忧都卸在你的跟前。
恳求你教导孩子学习以信心交托，不再愁烦。

我的顾虑你明白，我的软弱及缺欠你都知道。
你说有谁能用思虑使寿数多加一刻呢？
断乎没有。因为人心筹算自己的道路，你却指引我的脚步。

愿你以真道启示我，用圣灵牵引我，我就要快跑跟随。
求你怜恤我的软弱及亏欠，叫我常常行走义路。

我的主，我的神，我需要你。

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神垂听

2010-02-01T20:42:00.003+08:00
感谢上帝我的朋友昌普在上个星期五（29/1）信主了！从一年多以前的leader summit一直到今天可以看见上帝怎样一步一步的预备他的心来领受基督。

我要花一点时间来分享上帝的工作和我在当中的学习。

其实一年多以前我根本没有想到昌普会成为基督徒。然而经过leader summit 以后我就抱着希望他将被神使用成为有影响力的门徒。就从那个时候开始我就间断性的为昌普的救恩祷告。

上帝也透过同工博文去关心昌普，让他对信仰有跟深入的认识。期间昌普被博文的生命影响，建立互信；而他心中的泥土也渐渐地被软化。

一直到去年圣诞节的时候，我邀请昌普参与唐崇荣牧师的布道大会。那个时候深深希望他会信主，然而他仍然被父母的压力所困扰；不敢做出决定相信耶稣。

过后我开始邀请昌普来到教会崇拜。很奇妙的，他来了第一次以后就自动自发地要参与每一次的崇拜。期间叫人感动的包括他愿意了解真理，乐意参与奉献。现在他甚至是诗班的成员，并且是在还未信主以前就加入练习的。

我其实在上个学期有一个门徒，然而在造就的过程当中带给我很大的包袱和挫败感。这个学期开始我向上帝有这么样的一个祷告：那就是昌普信主，并且愿意被栽培。我希望可以成为我朋友的信仰导师。我要承认我没有天天为他祷告，是间断性的。然而一个人信主全然是圣灵的工作，上帝按照他的旨意在永恒里拣选了昌普，在最适当的时间神就叫他做蒙祝福的儿女。

感谢主！因为不是依靠势力，不是依靠才能，乃是靠你的灵方能成事！

我看见上帝怎样透过许多人与事慢慢地预备昌普的心。不管是同工们，CLC的弟兄姐妹，邓牧师，唐牧师或者是昌普的女友；上帝借着他们把昌普带到救恩的殿堂。

我学习到不去看轻心中小小的感动，因为上帝垂听祷告；并成就大事。我深感荣幸与喜乐,因为上帝叫我与他的救赎之工有份。

上帝提醒我要更殷勤的祷告。如果我们都积极祷告的话，我相信上帝会大大的改变及祝福我们的校园。

愿一切荣耀及赞美都归给天上慈爱的父！

恩典之夜！

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Mukjizat itu nyata

2010-01-26T16:40:00.006+08:00

Tak terbatas kuasaMu Tuhan
Semua dapat Kaulakukan
Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku,
itu sangat mungkin bagiMu

Disaat ku tak berdaya
KuasaMu yang sempurna
Ketika kupercaya mukjizat itu nyata
Bukan karena kekuatan
Namun RohMu ya Tuhan
Ketika kuberdoa mukjizat itu nyata

Inilah lagu kesukaan saya baru-baru ini. Berhadapan dengan kesusahan dan kegagalan projek tesis, saya selalu dikalahkan dari segi fizikal biarpun dari segi emosi. Ratusan jam telah digunakan untuk projek ini, lagipun dilakukannya dengan kekhuatiran yang teramat sangat.

Saya menerima kesusahan ini sebagai satu cobaan yang boleh menguatkan ketabahan hati. Walaubagaimanapun, waktu ketika menunggu kejayaan merupakan waktu yang begitu letih dan sedih.

Oh Tuhan, berikanlah bantuan Kau segera! Masa tamat eksperimen sudah dekat. Seperti yang Kau janji dalam Matius 6:33, berilah apa yang saya perlukan. Inilah doa saya.

Berjaya atau tidak saya tetap memuji Engkau. Semoga kehendak dan rencanaMu direalisasikan.

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Percubaan yang baru

2010-01-17T01:15:00.003+08:00

Tidak pernah saya fikir bahawa saya akan menulis blog dalam Bahasa Melayu. Inilah percubaan yang pertama, seperti percubaan saya semasa di CLC.

Sejak dari zaman sekolah menengah, saya berharap agar satu hari nanti saya boleh “membuangkan” BM secepat mungkin. Walaupun saya berasal dari sekolah jenis kebangsaan, kebanyakan rakan sekelas saya merupakan orang Cina. Oleh itu, adalah sebagai kebiasaan saya bercakap dalam Bahasa Cina pada bila-bila masa sahaja.

Akan tetapi, UKM merupakan satu-satu universiti yang memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu. Saya tidak mempunyai pilihan tetapi diwajibkan menulis tesis dalam BM juga. Tambahan pula, CLC sekarang sudah pun bergabung dengan pelajar bumiputera. Dari segi akademik biarpun dari segi pelayanan saya perlu menguasai bahasa ini dengan baik.

Semakin saya berucap dalam BM semakin saya menyukainya. Semua bahasa adalah hasil penciptaan Tuhan (Kejadian 11:7). Maka, kita perlu menghayati setiap bahasa dengan hati yang terbuka. Sering masa isu-isu perkauman ataupun politik telah menjana ketidakpuasan pada hati kita. Kita perlu ingat bahawa perkara tersebut tidak harus menjadi halangan kita untuk menghormati dan menghayati budaya kaum-kaum lain. Pasal politik sebenarnya hasil dari segelintir ahli politik yang tidak bertanggungjawab.

“Diversity is beautiful”. Kepelbagaian ciptaan Tuhan menjadikan dunia ini penuh dengan unsur-unsur yang cantik dan mendebarkan hati. Marilah kita sama-sama menghayatinya dan bergembira dalam proses pembelajaran!
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My Personal Resolutions

2010-01-03T23:00:00.013+08:00
A. Promise

With a humble and fearful heart to the Lord,
I urge myself to live out a meaningful life in accordance to the following resolutions.
I reserve the right to add, remove or amend the resolutions based on the biblical values.

在主面前我以谦卑敬畏的心催逼自己活出一个有意义的生命，是按照以下的宣言而行的。我保留加添、删除或更改我的个人宣言的权利；并以圣经原则为依据。

B.The Practice of My Personal Resolutions

(a) Recite all resolutions ONCE a week.
每星期诵读所有的个人宣言一次。

(b) Reflect for any violation to the resolutions EVERY NIGHT.
每夜反省是否有违反所订的个人宣言。

(C) Seek for a deeper understanding of the bible to amend my resolutions where necessary.
对于圣经寻求更加深入的认识，以便对个人宣言做出有必要的更改。

(d) Announce “My Personal Resolutions” to other people for establishing accountability.
对他人公布我的个人宣言以营造督促。

C. My Personal Resolutions
-Listed in no particular order.

(1) All my life is for the glory of the Lord. (1Cor10:31;Rom 14:7-8)
我一生是为主的荣耀而活。（林前10：31;罗14：7-8）

(2) The bible is my ultimate guidance; I shall look for biblical principles in making any decision.
( Ps 119:105)
圣经是我终极的指引，我要以圣经原则来做任何一个决定。（诗119：105）

(3) My personal devotion will be a sacred time lasting no shorter than one hour every day in which I shall study the Scriptures with all my heart. (Ps 1:2)
我要以每日最少一小时来成为我个人全心学习圣经并分别为圣的时间。（诗1：2）

(4) My tongue is a channel of blessing and praise, no other word shall come out from it unless it serves for a meaningful purpose. (Pro 25:11-12; Jam 3:5-10)
我的舌头是用来祝福及赞美的器皿，除了有意义的话以外，再也没有其它的话从它而出。
（箴25：11-12；雅3：5-10）

(5) I acknowledge myself to be a respectable and wonderful creation of God with a noble purpose. (Ps 139: 13-17)
我承认自己是可敬及美好的受造物，并且是为了伟大的目的而活着。（诗139：13-17）

(6) I shall not judge people by their appearance but treat everyone fairly in my words and action. (James 2:9; 1 Sam16:7)
我不以外貌判断他人，乃是要在我的言语行为上公平对待每一个人。
（雅2：9；撒上16：7）

(7) With all my strength I shall optimize my time for meaningful purposes. (Ps 90:10-12)
我要尽全力善加利用时间来完成有意义的事情。（诗90：10-12）

(8) I bear no compromise to my own hypocrisy. I shall slay it and live out my “real self” although it may bring much pain and shame for the moment. (Luke 11:40-41)
我不向虚伪妥协。我要将它打败并且活出真我，虽然这也许会带来短暂的伤痛与耻辱。（路11：40-41）

(9) My body is the temple of the Lord. I shall take care of it with balanced diet, sufficient rest and appropriate exercises. (1 Cor 3:16-17; 1 Cor 6:18-20)
我的身体是神的殿。因此我要以均衡的饮食、充足的休息及适当的运动来照顾我的健康。（林前3：16-17；林前6：18-20）

(10) The more I have fear towards a thing, people or incident; the more effort I will put in to overcome it. (Jos 1:9; Ps 34:4)
我若对某件事物或人心存畏惧；我越要尝试去克服它。（书1：9；诗34：4）

(11) Be thrifty to myself and be generous to others all the time. (1Cor 10:24; Php 2:4)
对己节俭，向人宽厚，并常常如此。（林前10：24；腓2：4）

(12) I shall not envy to see what other people can do, but with a humble heart seek for the spiritual gifts from God and apply it in the personal burden God has given to me. (Gal 6:4-5; 1Cor14:1)
我不妒忌人们能做什么，乃是以谦卑的心向上帝寻求属灵的恩赐；并且将它们应用在神所给予我的负担上。（加6：4-5；林前14：1）

(13) I am the servant of the God and Jesus Christ, not the servant of my personal pride or the worldly demands. (Jam 1:1)
我是神和主耶稣基督的仆人，不是自我或属世要求的仆人。（雅1：1）

(14) I shall be humble in my words and action showing no self-righteous or self-praise in any situation.
(Ps 27:1; 2 Cor 10:17-18)
我要在言语行为上谦卑，在任何情况当中都不自以为义或自夸。
（诗27：1；林后10：17-18）

(15) I shall keep the hope for myself no matter how bad I failed to follow my resolutions. (Isa 40:30-31)
纵使我无法按照个人宣言而行我仍然对自己保存希望。(赛40：30-31）

Fellow friends, I need your help to walk steadfast in the way to grow. Here are the resolutions I can think of for the mean time, and I will continue to expand it.

I need your accountability, thanks!

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改变我

2009-12-09T01:30:00.003+08:00
最近在读一些属灵伟人的传记；不久前才读完John Bunyan的见证，现在继续读Jonathan Edwards的见证。我才发现自己的生命有太多的软弱和亏欠。

John Bunyan的生命是如此的美丽，纵然活在苦难中却仍然丝毫没有退缩，完完全全的摆上自己的生命被主使用。

他认真的生活，没有浪费一分一秒；认真的思考，无时无刻钻研神的话语。没有压力可以叫他低头；没有重担可以叫他放弃。重点在于他是完全信靠和顺服上帝的人。

我也相信这一位上帝，但是我的生命却没有太多的长进。原来John Bunyan的秘诀在于他对上帝的话语有很深入的认识，特别是上帝的应许。对他而言上帝是很真实的，虽然眼睛不能看见。

所以我要更加认真的学习圣经，并且信靠神的话。我是如何看待圣经中神的应许呢？很多时候是把他们淡忘又或者信心摇摆不定。雅各书1章6-8节教导我们要全然相信。约翰一书5章14节也应许神要听我们的祷告。

很多时候小小的挫折和不顺利就会影响我的心情。我真的要学习忍耐的功课。上帝透过试炼和苦难来操练我们的信心，凡忍耐到底的就要成为完备的人。

主我渴望你改变我的生命。挪去我一切的罪恶和不洁，赐给我清洁的心。除掉我的怀疑和担忧，加添我全备的信心。

我对新学期的个人期望是这样：

1. 专心求智慧，在真理上装备自己。
2. 专心寻求未来的道路。
3. 专心预备自己的品格，学习爱人。
4. 殷勤做主工，不泄气，不退缩。
5. 专心履行学生的本分，好好完成thesis project。

我真的很期待生命再一次被主改变和更新。期待你的生命也是如此，让大家的生命都可以为主发光！

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近况

2009-11-01T15:11:00.002+08:00
最近依然忙碌，特别是final year project, 一做就是从早上十点到傍晚五点；而且又一直拿不到可以用的结果。每天到了晚上就特别的累，可是却还要温习功课。坦白说有时我很想抽离这样的处境。但是感谢上帝他仍然赐下平安和喜乐叫我可以胜过这些压力。

我才发现我的blog里面大多数所写的都是一些比较负面及悲观的情绪。其实我仍然有喜乐和感恩的时刻，只是很少写下来而已。最近要感谢的是上帝让我找到不见的学生证。其实我也不知道学生证不见了，是上帝透过一位姐妹发现的。是上帝用很意想不到的方式让我找到了学生证。现在正是考试期间，如果找不到真的不用上考场；而另外三科就必须重拿了。感谢神的保守！感谢神在过程中赐我平安及冷静的头脑。没有想到不到一下子就找到了，真的很感谢神！

我觉得自己真的很软弱，特别是在个人灵命及事奉上。很多时候再次陷入自卑当中。我想我最大的缺点就是太爱比较及太在乎别人的认同。我无法接纳自己的软弱，总是希望在每一个领域当中都要出色。比如说在传福音上，在音乐的事奉上，在人际关系上，在爱心，信心上等等都希望自己可以有如他人般结出百倍果实。其实我深知道这一切都是为神而作，不是为了个人的荣耀；但我就是一直无法接受自己为什么在诸般事情上都作不好。我并不是要与他人比较，但是我羡慕那些能够发挥恩赐好好事奉主的人。矛盾来了，前面说太爱比较，现在说不是比较，我也说不清。

我很感谢上帝愿意使用我卑微的生命，然而我却为着自己不结果子的生命感到羞愧。凡不结果子的都要被剪去并且被丢进火里烧了。我只希望自己是被圣灵燃烧，要继续屡败屡战。现在想作出的最大改变就是尝试什么都不去想，单纯去做就对了。结果是好还是不好不重要了，我要学习用正确的心态去事奉神，然后尽努力去做。最近练习唱诗班的歌给我很好的提醒，教导我要谦卑虚己。因为我晓得自己很多时候是个人背后的骄傲叫我有自卑的心理。前两段的歌词是这样的：

《旅程》
主赐我单纯的心赐我得真自由
赐我谦卑虚己不骄傲夸口
若自己懂得立在合宜地方
那就是爱与充满欢乐之乡

若得到单纯的真义
低下卑微亦不以为耻
在回转中得喜乐满足
藉着回转我们得归正途

但愿自己可以回转归回正途。
放下自己谦卑事奉主。

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Write with hope

2009-10-05T02:26:00.004+08:00

So poorly, I can do.

I tried,

and too many waits in vain.

Is it so hard to enter the land?

I know, it requires patience.

It requires love.

Feed by prayer,

Grow by His hands.

I have offered mine,

for you.

Though is not a deal,

I do hope you multiply.

Please talk to me.

I will listen attentively.

Even a ball bounce back when hitting ground,

spare me, from your cold shoulders.

Allow me to be your companion,

along the way to His glory.

I am ordinary,

but let me show you the Extraordinary.

Give me your trust.

Give us a chance.

I pray for you.

Write with hope,
James
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What is real

2009-09-27T20:43:00.004+08:00
It’s indeed a sin when you have talked too much, but doing nothing. It’s indeed a disgrace when people praise you, all just because of your hypocrisy.

You sound the loudest, as an empty barrel…shallower and shallower. Stop talking now, start working. Fulfill your vow and ask for the forgiveness.

Ps: You will soon write the same thing. Don't write this again. May the God have mercy on you.

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远方的朋友

2009-09-19T23:54:00.007+08:00
远方的朋友，

其实都有在读你的blog，似乎你们开学后的压力和忙碌远远超过我们的程度。虽然不能够完全明白你的心情和感受，但是我仍然想透过一些经文来为你加油打气。（我相信上帝的话语是最好的鼓励，所以一定要一个字一个字的读）

“我的弟兄们（姐妹也OK），你们落在百般试炼中，都要以为大喜乐；因为知道你们的信心经过试验，就生忍耐。但忍耐也当成功；使你们成全ˎ完备，毫无缺欠。”（雅1：2-4）

所以呢，

“忍受试探的人是有福的，因为他经过试验以后，必得生命的冠冕；这是主应许给那些爱他之人的。”
（雅1：12）

虽然试炼很辛苦很难受；甚至很多时候要叫我们跌倒。但千万不要忘记，

“神是信实的，必不叫你们受试探过于所能受的；在受试探的时候，总要给你们开一条出路，叫你们能忍受得住。”
（林前10：13）

我们都十分软弱，离了主我们什么都不能做。感谢主因为他曾应许说：

“我的恩典够你用的，因为我的能力是在人的软弱上显得完全。”（林后　１２：９）

既然是如此，我们还担心什么呢？所以，

“你们要将一切的忧虑卸给上帝，因为他顾念你们。”　（彼前５：７）

“应当一无挂虑，只要凡事藉着祷告ˎ祈求，和感谢，　将你们所要的告诉神。神所赐ˎ出人意外的平安必在基督耶稣里保守你们的心怀意念。”（腓４：６－７）

其实这些只是众多应许中的一部分。上帝真的很爱我们，也从来没有离开过我们。你也不要泄气，更不用搞自闭；不要忘记你还有很多很多的朋友。没有电话不用紧，就多打天上免费的热线吧。

会在祷告当中纪念你们的需要，你就继续在ｂｌｏｇ里面发泄吧。也为我们祷告，来临的星期五至星期日（２５－２７／９）我们有4５个学生将参与传福音的训练，而我也将再次挑战成为教员。求神透过训练装备学生成为神圣洁的器皿。

最后，以此经文作为结束时的鼓励：

“神是我们的避难所，是我们的力量，是我们患难中随时的帮助。”（诗４６：１）

加油！ｎ．ｎ

．．．

基督徒的平衡点

2009-09-07T04:03:00.008+08:00

最近还是很忙碌，几乎每一天都是迟睡早起。想写blog很久了，就是没有时间。刚好星期一有假期，就趁今晚把握时间写下一些最近思考的成果。

之前都在和一些朋友讨论何谓“尽力”？身为基督徒学生的我们所扮演的角色不单单只是在学业上考取好成绩，更是要在生活品格上有好见证。这不单是出于责任，也是对神的慈爱的回应。

如果我们认真看待这个课题，相信生活上也许会出现一些张力，至少对我个人而言这股张力也有一段时间了。是什么张力呢？是学业与事奉的张力。

为什么这股张力会出现？是因为我们的多重身份及对自我生命的要求。上帝的心意无疑是要我们在凡事上荣耀他的名。所以，身为学生的我们如果在学业上不求长进必然不能讨神的喜悦。同样的，身为基督徒的我们如果在事奉上不忠心也同样不能讨神的喜悦。那么要怎样才能两全其美呢?答案是在各个方面尽力而为，做到最好。我相信这个答案是每个人都认同的。

好，问题开始出现了。何谓“尽力而为”？尽力的标准是什么？怎么知道自己已经尽了力”？如果有两件事情要做，如何分配才叫做尽力呢？因为很多时候不是重这个就是轻那个。怎么样的平衡点才可称为尽力呢？是要牺牲学业加强事奉还是牺牲事奉加强学业？每当我们牺牲任何一样事物就在那样事上不尽力了，除非我们抓到正确的平衡点。这个就是我和朋友讨论的课题。

平衡点太重要了。因为我们时常会自己的“失衡”找藉口。

“不用太在乎考试和学业，事奉重要些，因为我们爱神多一些”

“对不起，我不想参与这次的事奉，因为我要专心预备考试。”

以上的例子都是我拥有过的想法。不愿事奉的时候就以学业为藉口；懒惰学习的时候就以事奉来掩饰自己。所以寻找平衡点是何等的重要。

但是，圣经从未描述过所谓的平衡点。我们要怎样断定呢？每一次和朋友讨论到这里的时候就会陷入停顿，因为大家都想不到如何在各自的生活中寻找这个点。有一次我在搭巴士回家的时候偶然间得到某些结论。

我们在思考这个课题是时不知不觉当中已经把“尽力而为”量化了（quantified）。要尽“多少”力？要用“多少”时间？“比例”如何分配？这些都是“量”的同义词。但是“尽力而为”并不是“量”，而是“质”。“质”是相对的，相对的事物不能给予绝对的值。当我们说到“尽力”时，是指着按照我们的能力而说的。对我来说两个小时温习就够了，对你来说四个小时才足够。今天我认为灵修半个小时就够了，明年说不定要一个小时才觉得足够。在每一个情况里面都是“尽力”，但是却有不同的“值”。换句话说，“尽力而为”是相对的，永远找不到绝对的答案。

但是为什么在某些情况下我们会觉得自己已经“尽了力”？是什么指标让我们知道自己已经尽了力？我相信是良心的功效。良心会揭露我们的内心。当我们“失衡”时，虽然看起来很卖命；但是良心绝对不会叫我们觉得自己已经尽了力。反之，我们会有空虚和罪恶感。

是不是说良心就是寻找平衡点的答案？不尽然是。我们的良心已经被罪恶污染，虽然我们都是蒙恩得救的人。我们都还在成圣的过程里，良心还未完全。但是我们都知道一件事---就是当我们越加学向主耶稣的时候，我们的生命就越加圣洁，灵命越加成长，而我们的良心也就恢复了功能。只有等到我们见主面的时候我们必要全然像他。也就是说，当我们越加学向耶稣时，我们就能够从日趋完善地良知中找到平衡点。

其实除了良知圣灵更加是我们最好的指引，因为上帝赐下圣灵要教导我们进入真理。（约16：13）我是在写到这里时才想到的。我竟然忘记这最简单的真理。人的智慧终究有限，唯有神藉着圣灵教导我们做应当做的事。我花了很长的时间才找到一个很简单的答案，就是常常被圣灵充满！感谢主，我们可依靠圣灵的带领找到平衡点！

忙碌中的反思

2009-08-21T01:49:00.008+08:00

最近生活很忙碌，单单在课业上就忙得喘不过气来。不单如此，在校园的事奉当中更占据了我蛮大部分的时间。坦白说，有时候心里会很不平衡。同样是第三年的学生，朋友们都已经怨声四起，而我自己却还要承受额外的重担和压力。

当我回顾自己刚进入大学时的日子，才发现我早已经失去求学的动力和耐心。今天所做的只是为了交功课而马虎了事，为了应考而随便读读；完全已经失去好学的心。今年我将会开始做自己的研究计划，而我似乎不感兴趣，纯粹是为了完成学业而做的。这样子好累，我也无法用心的去思考和计划。我似乎徘徊在事奉与学习的拉扯里面。

有一段圣经的话语一直在提醒我, 是记载在哥林多前书16章14节：

凡你们所做的都要凭爱心而做。

另外一段也是在哥林多前书，第13章1-3节：

我若能说万人的方言，并天使的话语却没有爱，我就成了鸣的锣，响的钹一般。
我若有先知讲道之能，也明白各样的奥秘，各样的知识。而且有全备的信，叫我能够移山，却没有爱，我就算不得什么。
我若将所有的周济穷人，又舍己身叫人焚烧，却没有爱，仍然与我无益。

原来我可以很忙碌ˎ很热心，但是没有爱这一切都是虚空。我一直以为越忙碌事奉就越会有满足感，但是事实并非如此。有时候是越事奉就越忧心和空虚，因为我发现自己事奉的背后很多时候是对学业的逃避，是对认同感的寻求，对自我价值的满足。怪不得圣经说凡我们所做的都要凭爱心而做。

恳求主鉴察我的内心，除去自我和骄傲。我不要只是空有其表，乃是要实实在在地以爱心真实的来过每一天的生活。

有时候觉得自己像是两头燃烧，就快要耗尽了。我很想休息，但是心里面总是会放不下一些事情。放不下自己的身份，放不下别人的眼光，放不下对自我的要求。恳求主怜悯我，我打从心里要为你做最好的见证，要在人前做光和盐；只是我实在是软弱和渺小。主我需要你，离开了你我什么都不能做。

但愿主告诉我前面的路，我现在就要快跑跟随。我已经失去了方向，我所读的不再是我的梦想。我应该往哪里走？我应该如何做选择？我应该怎样投资自己的生命？求主告诉我答案…

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My Secret Weapon

2009-07-24T02:21:00.027+08:00
The longest warfare I have ever fought is my “low-spirit syndrome”. Just for your knowledge, I used to be a very shy and introvert person. For many years this syndrome has worn away my confidence. No remedy for that and no hope in any way I see myself.

It is until when I know SOMEONE that helps me to escape from the bondage of depression. Today, HE is still my secret weapon in dealing with my nasty emotions.

Starting from yesterday morning I am again attacked by the blue army. I am so blessed to have brothers and sisters to give me encouragement. Furthermore, I was assisted by my Secret Weapon in this warfare.

I am now very joyful, for HE has released all my stress and worries. Who is HE? HE is my lovely Father in Heaven, my God. Do you know how miraculously God has answered my prayer? It is like this.

I prayed as I would do it every night. In the prayer booklet I read a verse from the bible:

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." (Php 4:13)

Do you know how much this verse has encouraged me? This is because I was in the midst of extreme tiredness due to busy assignments and activities. Later on, I read another verse in the bible:

"My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life." (Psalms 119:49)

Sounds amazing right? The first verse is a promiseffrom God to give me strength. The second verse is a reminder for me to rely on the promise to overcome my emotion.

God is good, all the time. Thanks God I can experience His great love in my life.

Hope that my secret weapon will be yours as well… n.n

*If you want to find out more about God, please read the following links:

http://www.aibenfang.com/m/personally.html
http://www.everystudent.com/my/features/gettingconnected.html

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友谊万岁

2009-07-19T22:03:00.013+08:00

新知夜辭加影巷，深夜人静返香港
依依身影永不忘，唯盼重逢友谊长

经历了一段新的友谊，是何等的珍贵…
珍贵因为当中只包含一种成分：爱…
基督耶稣的爱…

因为爱，才有：
坦诚的分享，
用心的聆听，
热情的款待，
真诚的鼓励，
衷心的祝福。

感谢神让我们彼此学习，彼此鼓励。生命中最喜乐的事莫过于生命感动生命，生命影响生命！也因为这件事教导我更要活出光和盐的身份，时时刻刻建立及关心身边的人，并成为他们的祝福。

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Updates

2009-07-09T02:22:00.012+08:00
I had my 2 months holidays fully dedicated to KL Hospital for my industrial training. I learned that I am still weak in building relationship with people.

However, thanks God for the chance that I can go to the Dr. Stephen Tong’s bible exposition seminar every week. Being built in truth is my greatest contentment during my life in KL.

Besides, I am more aware of the importance of “Reformed Theology”. I started to have a burden to share to Christians that follow Charismatic church without knowing what actually they are doing. Of course, I know nothing much, and am still in the process of learning.

I have just started my new semester in July. Before the school opening is our very warm and joyful core retreat. We spent wonderful time together. I was happy to see new breakthrough among us. Yes, we learned to share and pray in English; since we have 3 more “Bumiputera” staffs. Furthermore, this is a chance by which we all will learn to expand our vision; a transition of Chinese-based ministry to a multiracial ministry. Well, it won’t be so easy and it takes time, but it is a good start.

Please pray for the UKM team!

"Beloved" members of CLC

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感恩

2009-05-05T22:43:00.006+08:00

已经有很长的时间没有好好的静下心来亲近神了。因为内心里面被很多繁琐的事情困扰着。很渴慕可以过一个圣洁和丰盛的生命，也很羡慕那些与神亲近的人。

原来我需要一颗安静的心，来去体会和感触神的同在。我常会以“不要依靠感觉”来让自己好过一些；但是我相信一个被圣灵充满的人是能够清楚地察觉到神的同在的。

感谢主，让我这几天越来越渴慕与他建立更亲密的关系。我相信是上帝自己的慈爱吸引我来归向他。上帝再次让我回想到他的恩典和祝福，让我不得不为这一切献上感恩。

我要感恩的包括：

1．白白的救恩
-谢谢耶稣为我而死，叫我有永生的盼望

2．赦罪的恩典
-我不再被定罪，而且得以成为圣洁

3．我的家人
-感谢神让我出身在基督化的家庭，让我从小就认识他
-感谢神让我的父母亲以爱心抚养我ˎ教导我ˎ保护我ˎ安慰我
-感谢神赐给我一个可以成为学习对象的哥哥，和一个小时候最好的玩伴的弟弟

4．我的朋友
-从小学到大学神都把我放在一群正直和友善的朋友当中, 让我不受到坏朋友的影响
-我的个性很内向, 神却让这一群朋友来接纳和关心我

5. 学习突破
-感谢神让我担当很多的职分 (包括少团ˎ童军ˎ巡察员等等) 来操练我的信心
-特别是来到大学以后我的生命有了很多的改变

来到大学有很多的第一次:

-第一次成为短宣队长
-第一次成为少年短宣导师
-第一次在教会成为伴唱
-第一次在很多人面前分享学习心得
-第一次上镜录影
-第一次读完新约
-第一次学习驾驶van车
-第一次成为E-mentor
-第一次分享初级训练
-第一次去到很多很多没有去过的地方来传福音或者是retreat
-太多了。。。

6. 我的学业
-从小到大我的成绩都很不错，都是母亲的祷告并加上神垂听的结果
-我没有特别聪明，然而神却让我有充足的智慧来学习和掌握课业

7．神的拯救
上帝曾透过他奇迹般的方式拯救了：
-被打抢遭割喉的父亲（那时还很害怕会失去爸爸）
-20%生存率的早产婴弟弟
-盲肠不治而愈的哥哥
-生产后生命受威胁的母亲

8．神的供应
-哥哥25万的医学奖学金
-还有许多的需要上帝都透过身边的朋友和亲戚来祝福我们，真的是太多了，
数也数不清

求神帮助我常常数算他的恩典，并要以行动来回应他的爱。感谢上帝是那位又真又活的神，也是十分爱我的神。主啊，我要与你亲近。

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Final exam preparation

2009-05-03T02:45:00.006+08:00
Recently I am having my final exam started from 20/4 to 7/5.

Well, what I can share about is my laziness and unwillingness to study; especially the most hated subject biochemistry.

I used to be diligent and hardworking. However, my attitude changes as I grow up. No more self-motivation. Studying becomes a responsibility rather than an appreciation of knowledge.

For some subjects I learn it for fun; but for others I can hardly enjoy the process. I asked a question: Why do I need to study?

To pass the exam? To excel in academics? No. Having good score doesn’t equivalent to the mastery of a subject. A real understanding of the subject is the appreciation of the knowledge from heart; that you feel excitement over knowledge unveiled.

Luckily I am still enjoying some of the subjects taken, if not all. Our education system never teaches the reason of learning. Understanding the purpose of learning is far more important than learning blindly.

The extent of knowledge is unreachable. Selective learning is therefore utterly important.

What I am going to learn should relate to what I am going to be. For present I am not sure about my future; so this is the reason why I have lost my motivation.

So do you know why what you are doing? Having a purpose-driven life is my endless pursuit of life. I admire people with strong conviction of what they are doing.

It’s my great comfort from God in finding my way lies beyond. Below is an excerpt from the bible telling the promises from God:

“Who are those who fear the Lord? He will show them the path they should choose. They will live in prosperity, and their children will inherit the land. The Lord is a friend to those who fear him. He teaches them His covenant.”

(Psalm 25: 12-14)

My exam is going to end soon. Coming next is the industrial training in KL General Hospital. I am awaiting the new experience and encounter from a new environment.

Gambateh!

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Getting Started...

2009-05-03T01:01:00.003+08:00
Hi everybody, this is a blog regarding myself and my little stories. I would like to share my thoughts, minds and emotions here.

Too many times my memories perished with time; too many lessons unlearned. There are indeed many grace in my life passed unappreciated; and too many precious moments be forgotten.

~JamES UnScrambled~ is my endeavour to record moments of life. I believe that many hidden truths and lessons would be unveiled if we are being thoughtful and observant enough.

Hope that it would be an enjoyable moment reading my posts.

Thanks for reading! :)

P/S: New posts are coming soon..

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